It seems I can move forward full speed a head and then something puts a halt in my progress. I'm not exactly sure what that *something* is, but it is there. It seems to always lurk in the shadows and pounce when I least expect it.
I lost 20 pounds, was proud, ecstatic, overjoyed, etc. you get the picture. I thought I had finally conquered lack of motivation for good and was well on my way to finally achieving (read: conquering) my food issues; and then I went on vacation, got out of the routine and ended up gaining 7 of that 20 back. I was disappointed, appalled, mad, angry, etc.. at myself for letting the excuses get the best of me, for quitting when I was a head instead of moving forward toward my ultimate goal.
I ended up using the fact that I had gained back 7 pounds to be another excuse, instead of a motivating factor to get moving again. I could tell my clothes weren't fitting the way I wanted, and I honestly didn't care - until...
I went back to my posts (here) and (here) and remembered why I started this journey in the first place. It's about living in every since of the word. I have borderline high cholesterol. While some of it is genetic, it can be reversed by diet. I don't want to be 27 years old doped on medications because I can't say no to a cookie or chips. I don't want to be the 1000 pound woman who has to be lifted out of her house by a crane just to get medical attention. I don't want to end up like that. I want to live. I want to be healthy.
Last night I met up with a friend I hadn't seen in years. It was great to catch up! She had mentioned she was doing Weight Watchers and had lost quite a bit of weight. It works. I know it works, but I was just too lazy to actually do it myself...
So today, I went on the computer, logged on to Weight Watchers and joined their online community. I need something that will keep me accountable. Force me to think about the foods I am eating and also give me tips on healthier habits. I will be tracking my weight weekly from there, read about other people's ups and downs and hopefully conquer this *food* issue once and for all....
